Rose Sinclair
While it is true that as a child I was thrilled by Gene Kelly’s performance in Singing in the Rain, and while he might have inspired my love of the rain early on — this isn’t about that kind of singing in the rain. It’s about sudden storms, and golden light, and daring.
I was driving home, rain was falling, I was semi-miserable from having been bent in half most of the day, and wanted nothing more than to be standing in the rain somewhere not caring about anything else — just me and the rain. We are in a severe drought right now, and a few minutes after the rain started falling it stopped, and I was very sad. The sun broke through the clouds with that particular quality of light that only happens after a brief rain, that glittering with golden light off each raindrop that can stop any other thought when it is beheld. I had a thought then — what if I really did allow that golden warmth/light into my solar plexus? What might happen if I actively chose to work this specific magic? (many of my physiological malfunctions reside there, many of them I was born with).
Well, here’s what happened. A song spontaneously emerged from me — took some singing to clarify the message but it finally landed — and when I sing it, I allow that sunrise/starshine to emerge in and from my solar plexus as a ritual of healing and self-care.
I offer it here to you, sans melody, and invite you to create what melody you will if you desire to bring this sentiment into your life.
Golden sun rising inside of me
Golden star shining in spite of me
My Lady teach me to Be, to Know and to See
When I See me, I behold Thee
When I behold Thee, it’s me I See.
When I look through me, up to me,
the Whole and the true me
When I See me, I behold Thee
When I behold Thee, it’s me I See
Rose Sinclair August 31, 2022
Waxing moon in Libra
I’ve sung it alone, sung it with others, sung it in a round, sung it as a collective. I find it relatively soothing while also being challenging — a low impact spirit workout, as it were, going to the place I Am Not Strong, but can be stronger.